Secondhand Serenade - Distance

I’m driving down the highway
Cold and dark, dead
(It’s deceiving)
It’s deceiving
And miles and miles pass by
And I’m alone
My eyes feel like they’re bleeding
But I’m just crying

Is this what I ask for?
Is this what I ask for?

I hate myself when I’m away from you
I swear I’m sorry
Please don’t hate me too
And I don’t know if my heart will make It through
I swear I’m sorry
Please don’t hate me too

I don’t suppose you heard me
Call your name, girl
If you say louder,
Then I’ll scream louder
The cities in between us block the way
They make it harder
But I’ll scream louder

Is this what I ask for?
Is this what I ask for?

I hate myself when I’m away from you
I swear I’m sorry
Please don’t hate me too
And I don’t know if my heart will make
It through
I swear I’m sorry
Please don’t hate me too

(Don’t hate me)
Don’t fail now
Hold on to hope
Cause I’m yours
I’m coming home to you soon
(I’m coming home)
Cause the road is very worn
And It’s begging me to come back
(To You)

I hate myself when I’m away from you
I swear I’m sorry
(I’m sorry)
Please don’t hate me too
(I’m coming home)
Don’t hate me too
Please don’t hate me too

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That Night If we ever meet again.
I have no idea what we are going to be.

May 14th, we met in Michelangelo, I wait for you almost one hour,

I thought you will not came to see me again.

At last we met again and we talk alot, catch up each other life because we had been left the storybook around one year plus.

I’m glad that you are doing good there,

You’re still that charming, adorable but still that shy.

I thought I still hate you but I didn’t and I don’t.

I thought I still love you like last time and I do but with different way.  

We thought we still love each other like first time when we fall in love like teenage dream (yes we still do) but we are lost out the voice and we know what is the best for each other.

Yes, we’re still love each other but the fact has change to different level.

In that nite I tweeted about the status:

“After two summer we had missed out, total 509 days, (1year 4months and 22days)12,216 hours,now we are going to stop this & let’s start begin?”

and I have no idea how could we spend so many days and so many times for each other. We broke up and get back more than 3 times since 2010, I couldn’t exactly remember the correct times I think was 4 or 5 times. This time we thought we will going back again but at last I give us a space. A great and comfortable space for being a real person in each other life.

I cannot take it long distance relationship anymore. I did try one in London few years ago and then I met you, it’s been enough for my situation now. I mean that are not the main reason for us but it’s still does because of it we were changed our mind. I think you can be there able for me anytime(?) but it’s hard to accept it once again. The suffered and the pain we had it’s been enough.

We didn’t speak out that night we still love each other and want to get back. Even after that night every time conversation we had did. In our deep heart we know we still care each other, our love does exist but the feelings has change and we are not going back this time. At least you’re getting mature and better and I am focusing my career right now. I know is tough for you living without your mom because she have to go back canada and you have to fight for your life at least this few years. I promise I will be there for you when you need me.

No matter what it’s really happy I met you again. :)

No matter how I’m glad that you came to see me and we are still loving each other act like a BFF,family,lover…

Maybe someday we could get back to each other again, who knows? Never say never. 

But for now, we are still best friend and using the comfortable way to continue our life.

All the best to you, my dear babe.

xo
Koren 2012.05.27 / 04:56AM

PS: I no cry when we met and until I type this article. On the opposite way I smile when I type this because I had walk out the pain long time, that night we drinks alot that’s why our face like a monkey red, actually i’m little tipsy when we took the photo~

森林：

约会一直咆哮！！思念一直延长！
我回头与时间赛跑，想像你嘴上舔着雪糕。
遗忘。

柯人：
LOL
你這個大忙人
那還有什麼時間想像?

森林：
夜深人静～脑袋不停的呕吐
忙 一边心 一边亡
或许忙偷偷告诉我 心已死的悲哀

柯人：
你還真的文筆豐富
忙歸忙，心千萬不可亡也

森林：
最近心跳的频率加速 我是认真的
心 也应该发出警告了
我 要跳出时间框框 去冰冷宫一趟了

柯人：
你老早就應該了

森林：
心有余悸 恍

柯人：
對啊
要休息

森林：
躺在床上 棉被老早被挪成不堪了 这是老早
可是灵魂 没有遇见周公 难

柯人：
因為你的思緒太混亂了
所以周公不想見你

森林：
有些 现在狂呕吐着

柯人：
少點嘔吐，多點休息

森林：
不能 我办不到  
太多的狂想曲 在脑力 
没办法  停止 演奏

柯人：
沒辦法演奏就把樂器給收起

森林：
没办法  办没法 法办没
一堆没用的   没办法
没有乐器的陪伴  心中的呻吟依然 不停在响
我听听 我停停  
还是没有搞懂 那半点 完全没有办法理解的怪音符
没办法  
不管了  进入梦的帝国 
或许它 已经满满的  催眠我了
可能 那一天  我们会再相约
依然舔着那快溶的雪糕
依然   
在那街角  狂舞吧 
0139  了

柯人：
你的夢鄉已經在敲打著你了

森林：
不睡 是 个沮丧的数字
我 停不了 
20120510 ／0140  
依然在跳动着  依然感觉炎热
森林  梦续。

柯人：

舞動著的青春一直跳躍
夢想不斷的向前跑
晚安

PS:老友記，加油！

At first I should be post the entry.

Suppose I should be post the article. 

I mean the “We are Young”.

but

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Yesterday was White Valentine’s Day, Today is your T’s Birthday.

Happy Birthday to You. My Belove-ed. These two days used to be very important days to me. Now there are not belong to me anymore.

I thought our relationship not suppose to be the complicated, intense, fight, betray, cheat and using each other. Because we are not Blair and Chuck. My life just need a simple and neat, the messy cheated games are not unnecessary.

Kinda disappointing. In almost two years time. Every single time when I always tell myself stop to concern about you, concern about everything about your shit. And every time when you need my help, give me a call, I still giving out my time be a listener tried to solve your problem about your family, friends and study… Is happy that at first but at last I always get a SHIT. You just like to do what you want.

All I ever tried to do was be your friend. That’s it. but friends don’t treat each other the way you treat me. Unfortunately, our hearts are very sensitive. And when they’re broken, everything around us is shattered. I had enough about you.

I’ve been waiting this for so long, I thought as a friend we can chit-chat like a really best friend. I know every single details about you, your life. I thought we are really kind of after “broke-up best friend type”. I was wrong.

15th, I knew is your birthday and I set the reminder to myself after shower and it’s going to end the 14th almost 12am. I plan to give you a birthday wishes, the fact is you didn’t appreciated the friendship. After the missed call I gave you a text and I officially done. I youtube “The One That Got Away (Acoustic)” on my iPhone, I plug in the earphone and listen and walk into the song start to feeling sad. I drop a little tears, it’s like a heartbeat stop a little while. Actually is not that pathetic. I mean I’m not really that moody. Seriously, I’m already over it, can say so has fix you. You’re not person that one got away. As honest just another only teenage dream I loved / love. 

Anyway Happy White’s Valentine Day & Happy Birthday to You. Welcome to the 20’s club. Perhaps this is my last birthday wishes to you. 

PS: I suppose to post THIS as feature video for this article, but base on the song is chinese song so I just give up. (I love the song so much and its a theme song from the taiwan movie “LOVE” ) so I up the Jessie J as last minute for the feature. I love this song so much and since she is going to perform live in KL soon. BTW I’m not going because not interest view live in the beach. 

March 15, 2012
Heartbeat Koren

Adele - Someone Like You ( Live at Royal Albert Hall )  

PS: You can watch the full version in Youtube now, please go to buy her album for giving the support!

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She is still my all time favorite until the day I die.

I still remember the song how to change my life, and it still changing every day by day like adele do, like evreyone else have the same mad love to the song too.

I think in my tumblr, the most music video that I sharing is this song. From Adele to different youtube singer. The version I loved and the voice used to touch my heart.

I remember last year January 21st I posted this song on my tumblr. I got the “21” studio full album on 21st, its quite amazing when I think back now, the date and the tittle really match to be together. The songs list that I read, after “Rolling In The Deep”, I press to “Someone Like You” first time when the intro it plays on, I fall in love with the song and story very deep. Day by day month by month the song became more popularity and everyone love it, heard it played on the radio, people started to cover it, friends talking about it, people singing it… everywhere. Until I forget how hurts is it when I first heard bout that and the situation about my life.

The Someone used to be very very important in my life that completely leave me and step out my life.

Last year in someday, I still remember it was the december, the month fullfill of the joyful and love. I’m alone walk in the Pavilion shopping mall. Im pass by speedy shop, they were playing the Adele Live at the Royal Albert Hall, the song on the HD-bluray TV is “Someone Like You”, I stop my rush-step and walk into the shop watch the show. The way she talk the sound she sang, everything touch my soul and I almost tears in the CD shop. I feel like is a shame of it. Few weeks past and its one of the Christmas’s exchange gift, I’ve decided to buy the DVD as my gift. I really hope to share my favorite DVD with the lucky one. Well, at last the person got the present really like it, as they say: “Who doesn’t like Adele?” but for me she not just a soul singer that simple. It’s really inspire me, change my life, my view and my mind to relationship. The person who’re very important to me.

Janaury, I play the song in the shop almost everyday, until I become numb of  the song. I thought I will get sick of “Someone Like You” like other songs that I like or love, because every songs they have a “expired date”, like when you have a new song which is catch your mind and heart, you will very fast to forget the old songs. For me I thought it will until today, I repeat the video.

The way of Adele story about the song, she decribe and how important every little details about the men in her life. The way she sing and she cry, its really touch my soul and heart. She is really beautiful and pretty, while the first piano note it play, my tears drop it naturaly again. I thought Im get over with the situation, the person who’re bring so much pain to my life, I thought I already forget him but actually its still remind us when you flash back. Why? because its too much important until even one day you’re growing up, time flies, people change, mind different, you’re still remember the moment you guys share, not that “can’t let go” situation but the “because its happen in real and fucking amazing billiant once in your life.” 

I have no idea how many times I cry when I listen this song and issit still on future? I have no idea and Sorry being that sensibility but I really want to share how the feeling I am.

When the whole Royal Albert Hall people singing the chorus part together, I follow them sing it too. I believe on that moment every single person in the hall feel very goosebump and amazing on that moment. Totally one of the unforgiveble concert.

Last but not least, Thank You Adele to make my life being so amazing and real.

The pain, the tears, the moment, the love story, the person, the 21years old Koren, the Someone Like You in my heart, Forever until my hair change to grey, my vision become blur, my hand shaking and I playing the “Someone Like You” in my future room beside the beach its still touching like first time when I heard the song… … 

The Someone Like YOU.

Thank You, the Someone used to be my life and I loved you.

Koren, 2012 Feb 06. 03:21