"Silhouette"

I’m tired of waking up in tears
‘Cause I can’t put to bed these phobias and fears
I’m new to this grief I can’t explain
But I’m no stranger to the heartache and the pain

The fire I began is burning me alive
But I know better than to leave and let it die

I’m a silhouette asking every now and then
“Is it over yet? Will I ever feel again?”
I’m a silhouette chasing rainbows on my own
But the more I try to move on, the more I feel alone
So I watch the summer stars to lead me home

I’m sick of the past I can’t erase
A jumble of footprints and hasty steps I can’t retrace
The mountain of things I still regret
Is a vile reminder that I would rather just forget (no matter where I go)

The fire I began is burning me alive
But I know better than to leave and let it die

I’m a silhouette asking every now and then (now and then)
“Is it over yet? Will I ever smile again?”
I’m a silhouette chasing rainbows on my own
But the more I try to move on, the more I feel alone
So I watch the summer stars to lead me home

‘Cause I walk alone
No matter where I go
‘Cause I walk alone
No matter where I go
‘Cause I walk alone
No matter where I go

I’m a silhouette asking every now and then (now and then)
“Is it over yet? Will I ever love again?”
I’m a silhouette chasing rainbows on my own
But the more I try to move on, the more I feel alone
So I watch the summer stars to lead me home

I watch the summer stars to lead me home.

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Thank you, adam because always sing a wonderful songs to me.

Im not crying, i just sentimental and touching about the connection about life.

3 years being a single doesn’t mean I am alone. Its time to wake up and move on,

because I believe the summer star will lead me home.

LOVE.

Ben Sherman x H&M = På lördag outfit (Taken with Instagram)

Ben Sherman x H&M = På lördag outfit (Taken with Instagram)

有些數字(歌曲), 
會熟記在我們的腦海裡! 

其實 
並沒有刻意去記得 
只是 
習慣吧﹖ 

所以 
我們會在某些日子裡 
想起那些數字 (某首旋律)

也許 
會在當下 
回憶某些片段的時候 

我們都會不自覺的在意

有些事情,你明知不該去做
還是做了
只因為你不想有遺憾。 
有些感情,你明知你該去愛
但卻不敢去愛
只因你知道他會得到更好的。 
不曾擁有就不會失去。


可是,我們已經不再是年少輕狂了,
無論狂喜或狂悲,
都會漸漸令人感到難以負荷!
where is my stage? 
where is my light? 
where is my world? 
where is my ordinary me? 
where is my love?  
where is my story? 

照片是系統裁剪、審核才能上載… 
香港,首爾仰或是…?
太遠了吧。

音樂慢慢的漸奏,心裡與潛意識就在拉鋸着
手上拉扯的信件,一片片的一封封的
直到手上的紙沾濕了淚水 

愛情都是不過如此     而已。

音起聲暗            緣起緣滅
其實
往往身邊的那個不是最愛的那一個 

只是我們總是鴕鳥,事實遮掩了潛意識
身邊的哪位隱藏着某位的影子
原來已經早在三千年前世未喝孟婆湯/忘情水 摯愛的。
我其實很愛他,只是他不是我最愛   而最愛卻不在對的時間點給遇上,
我們都是埋沙子裡的腦袋,直到停止呼吸的那一刻來證明自己的決定是對的。

我們都愛著(錯),我們都愛過。


2008·2012edit-Koren

幹,今晚我竟然emo了。

好久沒有這種感覺了。

原以為回來之後要寫關於首爾的旅程點滴。

但是他X的。

想到首爾。

心裡就抽蓄著,

她原本是一個我很想再次回到的城市。雖然現在還是,我是指盡快在半年之內。

我從完全不愛韓國文化,音樂,電影,韓流等,漸漸愛上了那裡。

很多人以為我的名字Koren是因為Korea 或Korean.但其實我一點也不哈韓流。

只是該死的我有韓國人的特有標誌:單眼皮,所以特別吃的開。

關於emo這件事,話說在首爾短短幾天,在那裡開始了和AJ的故事。

他媽的,我可以跟“遠距離”說再見和永遠不見嗎?

為何我總是需要得到這些折磨?

從最早的倫敦londoner 到還算臨近的東馬KK歐菲華混血,再到Manila的Filipino之後現在首爾的american。

我想我真的對他有點動心了。

他媽的。

好巧不巧的他去了台北旅行。

今晚他跟我說他去了西門的酒吧,我想他去到哪裡就注定被台灣底迪給誘惑了。雖然裝作一副無所謂的樣子,(這種叫做自作自受,口是心非是嗎?)但是其實心裡難過得要命。

還回他說叫他Enjoy the night。Enjoy個屁啊!

自己在youtube掛啊掛,無意中點到了最愛Maroon 5 的 Sad,

聽著聽著珍珠大大眼淚竟然可以從眼角滑下來。

我到底是怎麼了?!

我該不會是現在愛上了人吧?

還是不要想了

腦海中他的臉給一直浮現。

SHIT! 

要記得人家在距離2000miles的遠方啊!

天使:(不要陷下去x1000)

惡魔:(在一起…在一起…4th 定律:他就是你今年的定律!)

我:   (你們都不要吵了!!!)

電話熒幕亮起: (I miss you)

PS: 該死!丘比特可不可以下次把劍射進一點啊?!!!

July 21, 2012
Koren

Yellow Lights.


有好長一段時間都沒有上網了。應該是說沒有真正呆在電腦座前面,

打著一堆自己想說的碎碎念。

電腦前一陣子拿去Format/重組了。

所有的一堆資料都不見了。

幸虧老早就把重要的資料給存檔備份了。

其實人已經到了一定的年紀,

從往前看  》 想念從前  》 念舊  》  開始看化一切   》 回憶淡忘  》 人生回歸自然

我看著以前的一些照片,文章,資料,音樂

每一段故事都挑起人的潛意識裡最深層的回憶。

也許是一首歌讓你回憶那一個片段,

也也許是一篇文章讓你再次記得自己當初所做過的事情。

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#NowPlaying - Christina Perri - A Thousand Years

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記得06.16,

一對友人結婚了。

其實結婚在這個龍年並沒有什麼大不了的,

只是她們是一對女同性戀/lesbian。

其實一剛開始知道朋友有這個念頭的時候,

心裡有個一個疙瘩,一陣漣漪很深很深。

自己從小就一直憧憬著愛情還有步入教堂,舉行婚禮,結婚並且跟自己愛的人同居。

加上很多人都說同性戀的愛情不長久,

從一開始的認知愛情,反對玩弄,厭惡把愛情當遊戲的,之後身邊陸續出現這種場景,之後到自己認知並開始慢慢接受,再到現在已經把感情這件事情看得很開。

也就是說,自己已經可以很坦然的接受他們所謂的:

“蒲場無真愛,21實際愛情就是一場遊戲,速食愛情發生在轉角。”

聽著身邊的故事,看著一幕幕的上演,心裡已經變得無所謂。

當身邊的所有人不斷的告訴自己,不要把愛情當真,童話已死時,

原以為自己真的不再奢望愛情,對丘比特也已經忘卻。

就在這時候得到了友人結婚的訊息,心裡突然之間阔然開來。

真愛還真的存在,只是我們已經被那些惡魔給慢慢吞噬心靈並忘記了最初的感動。

十年的愛情長跑結束,應該是說昇華了另一個階段。

其實自己很佩服並又內心衷心希望她們幸福。

數數,十年,不長也不短,當中當然也有無數次的爭吵,磨合期,冷淡期,習慣期,無聊期到親人期。

要維持“愛” 還的確不是一件簡單的事,

但是自己一直很相信,只要真愛就不怕被考驗。

當看著自己友人因為忙著結婚而自己籌備並打點一切所有的事項,

從減吃減重為了維持美好身材,再到婚禮場地住宿,島嶼的租借費用,沙灘的佈置,攝影師,婚紗的篩選,並自己把一件衣服加工變成自己喜愛的款式,製作結婚證書,找證婚人,家人的認同,結婚的所有花朵,衣服,裝扮,音樂等事前準備以及事後事宜,全都自己一手包辦成為自己從小夢寐以求的婚禮。

所有的一切一切,都太偉大了。時間很快,她們結婚應該是一個星期前的事了。

看著她們身穿婚紗念著誓詞的那一刻,心裡的激動與澎湃久久不能自己。

愛情它真的存在的。

謝謝她們並讓我相信這個世界的美好。不管男同性戀,女同性戀,異性戀,

當一大片的離婚潮,分手潮,互換伴侶潮陸續不斷的重複在自己身邊時,

自己都不再相信愛情時,

提醒了我夕陽下還是有童話故事裡的真愛。

謝謝你們。

並在這裡真摯祝福你們白頭到老,幸福一輩子。

Doris & Alexis, Happy forever. =)

你們是我人生中第一對步入婚姻的同志友人,對我來說真的意義非凡。

自己也希望有朝一日,

也可以很幸福快樂的與自己心愛的Soul Mate步入從小就一直相信並期待著的快樂禮堂。

一個時常在夢境裡出現的場景,在翠綠的草地上,白色的玫瑰花海,一個溫馨的午後,跟自己心愛的人穿著白色緞面西裝,兩個人手牽手的在神父面前宣誓。這一刻,這一刻。。。 。。。

婚禮,並不代表是愛情的墳墓,而是一段感情的開始。

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#NowPlaying - Of Monsters and Men - Yellow Lights.

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I love those random memories that make me smile no matter what is going on in my life, right now.

好久沒有聯絡自己的好友haoto,記得前幾晚劃著手機的屏幕,

看到了她的Kimi-To BTS,應該是說她的另一首單曲就快發布了。

記得一年前聽她哼唱demo旋律的時候,那時只有吉他聲,一些簡單的哼聲,

還有一些日文歌詞,

我看著她認真的臉孔,心裡一直覺得很安慰。

如今距離上次見她跟她聊天的時間已經有幾個月之久,

突然很想念她,很想念那個跟自己很要好,無所不談的她,

人們常常說:人一旦忙碌了,就會把人給忘記。

我知道我們的友情永遠不會改變,但是這個時候自己真的很想念她,

看著她在BTS Video裡的熟悉笑容,調皮的吐舌表情,大剌剌的動作,臉孔,眼睛突然紅了起來。

希望自己很快就可以和你見面。

無論你的音樂如何,自己永遠會默默支持你的,加油!

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06.16,原以為接近快要三年的單身生活會在繼續,直到最近自己遇上了一個蠻珍惜和愛自己的人。

2012的自己,下半年的桃花還蠻強的。

只是知道,緣分來了沒有去躲,是自己的它終究還是會來。

就在那一晚,他遇見了我,他說他會捨棄一切飛來這裡跟我生活,並在這裡工作。

我不能很肯定這是不是自己想要的,

自己也不想耽誤別人的前途而要人家犧牲自己的一切來到這個對他來說陌生的城市重新生活。

如果愛真的能夠改變一個人的話,

那麼我希望這段愛情可以快點降臨並發生。

也許我就能夠知道愛有沒有說謊。

Koren

2012.06.29

Paris,Moscow,Toronto,Pisa,London,Rome,New York,Las Vegas,San Francisco,Mexico,Bangkok,Tokyo,Beijing

Please wait for me.

(Source: vivasuvida, via getalifebitch)

MIKA - MAKE YOU HAPPY

Mika’s songs always making me smile. (A lot) 
I always feeling happy/sad when I listen his songs.
His 3rd album "The Origin of Love" coming so soon (Finally!) I can’t wait for his album..
When first time listen this song, I feel love.

The video spread many of love.

Hope of Love, Lost of Love, Curious Love, We found Love, dance, smile, laugh, hugs, holding hands, cuddle, kiss, touch, petting, french kiss, lick, dancing, shaking

friends love, relationship, teenage dreams, young blood, tattoo kids love, emotional love, bromance, gay love, hetrosexual love, lesbian love, long distance love, party rock love, school mate love, pure love, teenager love, first love, new married couple love… …

"I wanna do is make you Happy :)" The lyrics keep hook in my mind~

Mika statement said that the song will not be a single but I know its going to a hit.
The song let me think of Owl City “Fireflies” but they are totally different song~

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MIKA _ Make You Happy

All I wanna do is make you happy x6 
Baby you ain’t tryin’, 
If I said I’m upbeat, I’d be lying, 
Show me what your hiding, 
But if this is love then watch me die on you. 
All I wanna do is make you happy x3 

Maybe you can’t hear me, 
But I feel like screaming when you’re near me, 
Save me from your theories, 
At the very least just let me cry on you. 

Undervalued, I can’t be far from the truth. 
Baby something or other…. (?) 
All I wanna do is make you happy x6 
Love and hate each other, 
If we can’t get it together, you know we’ll never ever ever. 
Fix a heart don’t break it, 
Can’t you see the love around you? 
You know, you’re crazy not to take it. 
Under valued, I can’t be far from the truth. 
(then the line that I can’t understand…) 

All I wanna do is make you happy x6 


Whatchya gonna do? I am not over you. x4 
Never gonna give you up, never gonna (?) 
Where’s it gonna end up? 
I’m never gonna let you down. x4 
All I wanna do is make you happy x3

Hey guys, as you knew that last month april facebook has bought over instagram.

As first instagram was the app for the apple (fan-boy) user since long long time ago and then finally it’s have android version for who are using samsung, HTC or any phone who are run android on April.

so if you haven’t follow me yet, you could Follow me in instagram with few ways:

You can search my id code inside the phone instagram system: korenp

or

If you’re using your deskop now you can click the upper small banner button via followgram to follow me on web.

or

Just take out your smartphone scan the QR code and follow me:

See you there :)

Being with your friends, dancing, nostalgia, peace, happiness, bliss, freedom, youth, a cool drink of water, the sun splashing on your face. This song just blows my mind. I can literally listen to it day in and day out.

It’s summer, i’m not going to say that how deadmau5 foing to rock the stage. 

Last month I went to bangkok, I walking alone inside the chatuchak market.

That was a huge place but full of narrow street and little tiny shop. I don’t know why and how I went to a little secret steet and I listen a familar song spread in my ear. It was “Young Blood” by The Naked and Famous. i was slow down my step and I walked into the shop, it was a dark, cold and a long hair with long beard man seating there. The intro started to play and I start to sang a first verse. “We’re all young and naive still… …We require certain skill… …” The song always remind me about UK Tv-series “Skins” and my teenager unwritten rebel life.

They are still one of my favorite bands. Im not surprise that why they knew about Naked & famous not just because the Thom Powers and Alisa Xayalith are amazing vocalist couple in the band but at the same time Alisa is a thai. At first I thought she are chinese.

The wall hang on tons of copies CD, 
It’s so many indie bands and million cover over there.
His style just like a retirement rock star.

I pick up some CD.

One of them was “I Love You Dude” by Digitalism. I love the simple artwork on the cover. It’s a octagon black love with a white color background. It’s pure attractive for me. He played a “2 Hearts” track and both of us kept silence and enjoy the wave inside the shop. That’s was amazing experience between of music and human. We don’t know how to communication based on language even he know how to speak a simple english but who cares what language we are talking? music without boundaries.

2 Hearts have a little “xx” style when intro was play but the hook comes with a very fast electro rock house beep.

End up I bought 6 pieces of CD from the shop, next time I will introduce some favorites songs from the CD that I bought.

If you really want me to choose either Naked and Famous or Digitalism? N&F still my all time favoirte. I really mad love with them. I thought Im the only one who love the bands. Last autumn I still remember last year during the MIFW2011 in KL, Silas’s “Regnum Lapideum” S/S 2012 collection inspired by The Walking Dead, he choosen  ”The Source” from The Naked and Famous for the runway music. Im happy that he used the bands song as his runway music.

At last please enjoy “2 Hearts” mv in this hot summer day.